I would like to know how people in seminary survive with kids. It seems impossible to me. How can a husband go to school full time, work and the wife stay at home with the kids? How is this even possible. Where is this "money tree" from which you survive? Bryan and I have weighed the options of having children while in seminary, but it seems so financially improbable. Not to mention next to impossible for him to be working full time and finishing his degree. And if i have to hear one more time "you'll never be financially ready to have kids" i am going to explode! Yes, this is true....but to some degree you can be somewhat proactive in planing some financial provision. So my question is how do these people who have 2+ kids, jobs, seminary and wives who stay at home do it? We need some counsel on this anomaly. Seriously....we do. Call me!

I went to the doctor today and was again told that if i want to have kids i need to do it within the next 6 months (not that it couldn't happen later, but this is our best shot... NO PRESSURE AT ALL). The first time i heard that was about a year ago. Obviously, we didn't start trying.....but now we are listening and thinking....but mostly praying. My choices are really not that great and are as follows:

I could:
A.) Get back on birth control and endure painful cycles.
B.) Get an injection for 3 months that makes me moody, gain weight and unable to have children for an entire year after the initial 3 months.
C.) Get another injection of something that takes all of my hormones away; sends me into early menopause: hot flashes, mood swings, weight gain blah blah blah, etc. etc...(all side effects that would make Bryan's life wonderful) This would dissolve the endometriosis completely....but it would eventually come back.
or D.) Get pregnant. The entire time I was pregnant i would have no endo and the entire time I was breast feeding have no endo...so we're talking a year of no endo. Not to mention my hormones would change a bit bc of the pregnancy. Which can cause the endo to not grow as quickly or at all....its different for each person.

This is another thing i wrestle with. What if I am being healed of the endo. I have been praying God would heal me and I have felt sooooo much better (especially being off the birth control). What if the world says do this, but God being much bigger and in control of my life is planning something bigger. Do i take the medical advice i am given or do i be "naive" and sit around and do nothing?

Again I ask...where is the money tree hiding? I want a cute, fat, smiling, crying, pooping, laughing, wiggling, loudly crying, money sucking, sleep depriving, food eating, looks like bryan, bouncing bundle of joy!!!!!!!!! (Term on the street for such thing: Baby).

The answer i hate bc its so cliche, but know is true is:
GOD IS IN CONTROL!
So let me pray that i rest in His sovereignty!! You should pray that too, for Bryan and I.
Thanks!